How do I tell you
I want to be loved differently
than the way you love me.
Is this too hard to grasp?

Not more romantic gestures
But that wouldn’t hurt
Since I was raised on fairy tales.
Do dreams really come true?

I’m talking about deeply showing
The depth of your love
With words, actions and affections.
Can you start soon?

A ballet starts slow and builds
With music, movements and soul
Magic from each fingertip and leg bend.
Do you want enchantment?

I want that kind of fairy dust
The kind that leaves you breathless
Yearning, wanting, with each exchange.
Can’t you sense it?

Your silence creates a chasm
Of neglect and daily solitude
Every weekend with no text or calls.
Is this your intention?

You’re teaching me the hard way
Of living without your voice or laughter
By leaving me alone when you’re alone.
Or are you?

You’re showing me my garden of life
Needs to be filled by me, not you or us.
I thought we were in this together.
Not so much now?

Love is a bond built over time
Space, years, centuries, lifetimes.
We travel to our karma until it burns out.
Are we over before we try again?


Zuzu Zanders is you. She is me. She is every woman who seeks clarity, vision and guidance from within herself.

Art by Osnat Art


Published by Astara Solae

I created 13MOONS Magazine to resurrect the sacred feminine in Stories and Art. As a Seeress who'd worked directly with Oshun, Yemaya, Oya, and other earlier Goddesses, I noticed a stark difference in these energies and those of later iterations, such as Venus and Aphrodite. It is like parts of these beings were stripped away. Whether to fit the fashion of culture or men, I'll leave for you to decide, but this just didn't sit right with my spirit. And so I dreamed of a platform which would amplify the real voice of the feminine - Stories and Art created by actual women from our perspective, without apology. And here we are.I am called Astara, a name I received during meditation, meaning Little Sirius. I am here to draw down the energy of Ast, also known as Auset, Isis, and the latest: Mother Mary, truly just a hint of the Original anymore. I am here to Remember and to help Remind us of who we are as women, who we are beneath patriarchal whitewashing and power politics as religion. I am here to Remind us of the wisdom we hold within each of our cells which we have mistakenly (and blasphemously) called our meat suit. I am a Sensual Fluency Educator and Tranceworker, offering tools I've channeled from my own body to help you connect with yours. Reach out anytime if you'd like to hear more.

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