I’m always searching for new ways to connect with, & discover intimately, aspects of myself. I remember feeling so disconnected to myself for so long due to the amount of trauma I’ve experienced, because being IN my body & in touch with myself did not feel safe. Honoring MY portal; my yoni, has been a huge reclamation for me. I’ve been used & abused, & accepted far too many broken people inside of me. I let HER be a receptacle for the wounded masculine, & for my own wounds in order to achieve some level of surface satisfaction, fulfillment, & selfish pleasure. I allowed my portal to be a center for gifting others & myself such satisfaction, while all this did was end up taking from me instead, & left me with only disappointment & pain behind. There was no such worship to be felt or found, & no honor held by me or any other.

I spent far too long not honoring my womb space, vagina, & vulva for the power & magic they hold. I allowed it to be the receptacle of mine & other’s brokenness more than I allowed it to be worshipped for the portal it truly is. My own personal portal of creation, of energy, of transformation, of power, nestled warmly within my hips & thighs. This portal deserves respect & to be honored beautifully; & so I wanted to create art FOR her. Art that would serve as my reclamation of my journey, & that has been birthed through me.

So, I decided to create yoni art to honor her.

I sat naked in front of my mirror, & met my portal face to face. I gazed at her curves, her folds, her softness, with loving gratitude. I studied her & welcomed her. I thought of what colors reflected her energy most, & used those as the basis of the canvas I was creating. Still posed in front of the mirror, I carefully, & gently, applied paint with my hands to the surface of my labia, vulva, & clitoris & then gently pressed it to my canvas. The essence of my portal spoke floral & swirly to me; the energy of being comforting, flowing & inviting. So, I finished the piece by adding beautiful gold detailing of petals, leaves, & swirls to accentuate the energy I feel from my own yoni.

I concluded my art piece by thanking her, telling her how much I love her, & promising her that she’ll never experience being mistreated, disrespected, or dishonored again.

Now my beautiful art piece is displayed on my altar space, at the front & center like she deserves. This art is a constant source of calling my sacred power back within myself, & quite frankly, it makes me feel sexy as fuck too. This art piece honors my portal the best way I know how, & I am grateful for what it honors for my healing journey as well. The token of gratitude for my journey through trauma, through motherhood, through all that I have become to this day.

Now, I humbly offer you the opportunity to create a piece to honor YOUR portal too. Your portal deserves the honor & the reclamation that creating art with her can bring for you. It is a sacred act of self care, self love, & self discovery that will leave you with a fresh perspective & a beautiful keepsake to boot. All I ask is that if you embark on this journey for yourself, that you please; use water based & skin safe paint, only apply paint externally, & that you thoroughly wash all paint off as soon as you possibly can to ensure your lovely yoni is safe & sound.

I call in blessings & gratitude for you as you create,

Sarah Elaine

I also invite you to follow me on my social media platforms if you would like to keep in touch. You can find me here:

IG: @the.self.love.rebellion

TikTok: @theselfloverebellion

ABOUT SARAH ELAINE

I am an empowerment coach & portrait photographer in Mesa, Arizona that specializes in self image sustainability & outdoor boudoir sessions. I am also a mom, an artist, neurodivergent, & have CPTSD. It is my soul’s mission to authentically share my personal experiences with others as a source of inspiration & encouragement for prioritizing mental health, self care, self acceptance, & trauma healing for themselves.