a space of blank consciousness
staring at this space of white paint.
i am called and drawn to cards.
intentions and musings.
before asking anything, justice flew out
then the knight of pentacles
and again with the hermit.
justice, brings balance to the other cards.
asking that i remain in a beautiful balance,
of light and dark.
the knight of pentacles, with his heavy horse.
a gentle reminder of the weight i carry in shadows.
the hermit, guiding the journey inward.
his light illuminating the shadows.
the cards speak loud and clear,
telling a story i need to hear
swimming in shadows
letting my hands speak, i translate these stories
this darkness emerged forward
a place that demands to be felt
changing at every angle
this translation of shadowy musical energy
embracing these edges
the deeps drops
facing them without fear
finding myself in this place of shadows
while painting, i could feel the music.
seeing it played out before me.
allowing the energy to come through my paintbrush, like a conductors wand.
leading the music along.
a full surrender to my creation.
seeing colors, these rich tones i was painting with – not just the black paint i was using.
i was painting rainbows and music.
tuning out and becoming one with this connection.
full expression, no floodgate
no longer is there a blank canvas of consciousness
a space filled with darkness and shadows is before me
filled with twists, turns and sharp edges
the white paint brings light
welcoming me in a warm embrace
taking soft turns
working small details
moving and flowing
i found myself working at a much slower pace.
the brush strokes, each becoming more intentional.
losing myself in the water,
allowing this strong water energy to be brought forth in full expression.
integration of shadows and sunshine.
shadows and sunshine
the warm sunshine yellow that surrounds me feels good.
this journey into the shadows wasn’t dark or gloomy.
instead, i found myself in this warm, wonderful journey inward.
it is a process of being able to understand myself better.
loving myself deeper.
i have such a deep love for these shadows.
at one time, they protected me.
my job is to heal them,
and set them free.
i take my energy inward and outward,
what i put into this world,
i put back into myself.
i fill myself with this warm sunshine energy.
shadow work is love work
the lovers card speaks to this piece on so many levels.
the love that i have for myself.
my love of others.
the love i receive back.
this is the self care card.
the protective, angelic pure healing energy.
self care, the most important aspect of this shadow work.
taking care of my physical body after an intense journey inward.
this love goes beyond the normal scope of the word.
a way to channel nourishing energy back into my body.
a way to fully love myself.
a place to find and heal stored trauma.
a chance to just be.
pouring so much into this piece, i needed to pour back into myself.
i lit an Aphrodite candle, and surrounded my space in crystals,
the lovers bath soak, and rose petals dancing in the water.
treating my skin to masks, and taking time to fully indulge my leo venus.
creating a space for me to cleanse and clear.
letting it all go.
the creation of this piece was a wild ride.
the messages and guidance that i received.
the heaviness of each card i pulled.
the weight of each stroke of the paintbrush.
this deeply loving process and chance for full shadow exploration.
it was warm love that i found.
illuminating the pieces of me with this solar energy.
a perspective change on how to do shadow work.
listening to the quiet
i am called to this quietness,
to tones and water,
the sound of a river flowing.
demanding me to take my time,
to slowly build the tracks,
one after another, never taking on too much.
finding sounds that allow my brain to unwind.
leaning into comfort.
relaxing in this space, and allowing myself to just be.
staying present in the moment.
and taking time away from the noise.
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